J's Musings

This is my first time writing a diary entry sort of thing here. But I believe that maybe you’ll find something about the life of a 13 year old during exam season amusing.

I am a homeschooler who is associated with an academy dedicated to homeschooling children, they train us for the basic subjects we will need for our college entrance exams; while we focus on our respective areas of interest. This week we had our term exam; I still hate those just as much.

This week and the past was mostly study and writing for this blog, I did have rest, but every time I did, guilt hit me hard and I just couldn’t rest. Instead I just studied.

To be fair it did give me good results, the papers went smoother than ever and I flinged the one that studying for, made me break down.

Speaking of, my regional language test made me break down so bad, I just flinged it. Then today after giving my last test, I wrote this.

To give you a better view of how everything went from the start, here is how it went.

Last week was pre exam revisions starting with Math and then Science. Honestly I only did Math first because I wanted to eat my frog first. And it went well, four days of 4 hours [per day] of grinding out to do both Algebra and Geometry, then also during classes where they wanted to do revision worksheets of their own. Quite unnecesary, but the teacher cares a lot about if we understand or not. So it was sweet of her to take all the extra classes.

Then it was Science which I actually like. 2 days of 3 hours of first Biology and Physics and then Chemistry. Again in class, honestly I thought seeing another atom model would make me puke.

Then for one day I read all the History, Civics and Geography chapters to better prepare for later.

Only after all the pre preparing, did the real tedious work start. First was English, barely 2 hours of work as I remembered most of it already.

Then Math, hours of looking at sums I must have already solved 10 times.

Then computer, a hit or miss paper I worked hard on out of my need for academic validation.

Followed by Analytics, one of my favourites, and one I’m fairly good at. But it was still a lot of reading and scrutinising.

Then we had Science to finish of the week, another day of tedious studying and re revising.

Monday and Tuesday were languages, but I only do Hindi so I didnt have anything yesterday. Though Hindi was enough to make me want to kill [I didnt].

Today I gave my H/G/C paper, and yesterday’s revision was so much easier than I would have assumed. Partly thanks to my reading the lessons beforehand.

During this, I couldnt focus much on literature works, which is making me feel so damn guilty! I think I’ll do it today.

And then, I’ll finally be free to watch Hidden Love to my heart’s content and enjoy my days off!

Also they moved our holidays two days ahead to give us more time to rest:)

I truly belive exams are an exhausting time and can stress students out. It”s important to rest, and guilt usually eats away at our brains, but we get through it. We focus and we work towards what we want; good grades, approval, a guilt free school year.

It’s different for all of us; we all have our reasons. Somehow, it always ends the same, with somewhat satisfied students, happy to finally have this end.

But I’m glad my exams here arent half as bad as what happens in regular school. I had a lot of fun, learning and really grinding out every now and then, it feels like we have some activity going on in life. It makes me feel refreshed at the least. But it is good to be back to focusing on this place and my literature, I enjoy this and I had fun doing that. I wish I could live like this forever, where most situations make me happy, and I hope you can lead the life you want to…

Lastly, all I can say is, “All the best!!” to all the readers who have any exams coming up.

[This is my first time talking about how I feel here, so I hope you liked it.]

Janx 🙂

Picture Credits: bvijphn on Pinterest

PS. I dont know if you can zoom open the featured picture, but if you mange to, just know that is a lot like what my table looked like for the past 15 days…